Diary of an Overeater...

Well, it has been a while indeed! Been away from LJ for a long time, about 6 months. In that time i have gained about 7 lbs, so not too bad. Ive been eating what i want, doing tons of exercise and maintaining my weight. I hired a personal trainer at the gym which was fab, but cant afford him now so will have to watch my food, as i will never do as much exercise as i did with him.

Current weight: 154 lbs
Height: 5"6.5
Goal weighht 1: 147 lbs
Goal weight 2: 140 lbs.

Diet will be healthy as usual with less treats than i have been eating (but not none, as it makes me go crazy!). I have also bought Alli, the new weight loss pill from Boots, so will let you guys now how that goes. It gets delivered on friday!

Rea x

Hi guys. Its nice to be back. Had a friend staying with me sept-dec. That was hard. She liked to eat chocolate (as i do), and bought it often (as i dont). So the run up to christams saw me gain more weight than i did over christams itself!
Am back on it now. For once, im not counting calories (thought it would lead to a massive binge if i restricted too much), so am just eatin natural foods mainly:
- Meat
- Fruit
- Veg
- Anything that grows or was alive basically!
Kinda following Slimming world and am down a few pounds. Will hopefully keep it up.

Height: 5"6
CW: 142
GW1: 140
GW2: 133

Rea x

So...as a yo-yo dieting, overeating Slimming World member, im not doing too badly!

I eat crap generally, but have figured out a way to 'cheat' the scales on weigh in days. I just go to the gym for an hour before and dont drink any water. Stupid, i kno cos its not real weight loss, but the pressure to not have gained in front of all those women is quite immense.

I wish i took it seriously though and actually stuck to the simple Slimming World plan. Its soooo easy, mybe thats why i dont do. Too easy.

CW = 142lbs (10st 2lbs)
GW1 = 140 lbs
GW2 = 133lbs.

Not that small eh? But seeing as its took me since MAY to lose this weight, i imagine getting to 9 and a hlaf stone will take me a while!
If only i stuck at it properley eh?

Happy New Year.
Rea x

Not doing so well. Got slimming world in an hour. Think ive put on 4lb in 2 weeks. Boo!!!

Rea x

So its wednesday, another ggod day i suppose. Eaten a bit too much, but i am alowing myself certain foods to try and stop the formiddable binging in the evening.

Im eating:

• Veg
• Fruit
• Meat
• Beans
• Seeds
• Dried Fruit
• Nuts

These are all healthy foods and im allowing myself to eat as much of them as i like (scary, i know!). Thats kinda in line with Slimming World - apart form the beans and nuts/seeds.
Im allowing myself some carbs with meals e.g. rice, potato.

Trying to trust Slimming World and see if it actually works without me starving myself.

Rea x

So...this week has been ok so far. Had a shit week last week, ate like a ho, but managed to lose 1.5lb. Dont ask me how!!!

Am gald actually, cos i was going to Slimming world on monday to tell her that i wanted to stop for a while! Dint want to pay a woman £5 a week for her to tell me i was gaining weight. But by some turn of God, i actually lost weight AND won the raffle! Well impressed wi that, got all sorts of low cal foods.

So... down to 10st 5lb (again). Thats 145lbs. Want to get to 140lb by my aunties wedding - 15th Nov.

Wish me luck! Rae x

Hi guys. Bad news on the weight loss front...i put on 1.5lbs this week. I knew i would as i ate like a hoe-bag last week and the week before.

So my cw = 146.5lbs.
My target weight = 140lbs.
My highest weight = 154lbs.
This is supposed to be achieved by 15th November.

Can it happen? I usually lose 1lb per week, but as its going at the moment, is doesnt look likely! Any advice?
Rea x

so...my weigh in on monday was bad - hence why i have not posted since last week.

I put on 1lb. Thats awful. Not the fact that its a pound, but the fact that im supposed to be slimming down, and im actually putting on weight. Do you get me? I know 1lb is not a lot, but it is for someone who has been losing weight for 4 weeks on the trot, then suddently puts a pound on. Its crap.

I was alone all weekend, ate leftover lasagna til it was all gone, bought chocolate, ate takeaway, drank alcohol. Gosh, what on earth did i expect?

The horrid thing is - its the same this week again! My mate is staying with me so...I had a dominos pizza on monday, a thai on tuesday, chocloate, crisps and sweets on wednesday and today is thursday - what other shit can i put in my mouth?

Seriously annoyed with myself. Its a total shift in my brain - last month it was easy. Now i cant be arsed.

God, please help me. Rea x

Hi guys. Havnt posted this week - been sooo busy with wrk!

I last posted to tell you it was weigh in time - i lost another 1.5lb! Which is fab, cos i cheated a few times that week. So im stil obese at 144lb, but its slowly coming off.

Up until last week, i would have said my sensible restricting was preventing binges and weight gain, as ive lost 4 weeks in a row. But this week, ive binged like a hoe. Dont know why, but i think its cos ive made up with my family (we fell out|) and im now a bit happier. Does that make sense? I eat when im happy and content, but starve when im moody and focussed.

So this monday, i doubt i will have lost any, possibly half a pound. As long as i dont gain and go backwards, ill be ok. Got netball for 2 hours now, then gona go for a run or to the gym tomo. Gym and aerobics on monday before weigh in again.

Home alone though all this weekend - wish me luck!

Rea x

Well, tonight is the night. I get weighed in 5 hours.

Did really badly this week, ate a whole tub of ben n jerrys ice cream, went to a toby carvery last night and for what? I dint enjoy it, feel fat and have messed up my chances of gettin my half stone award tonight.

Really pissed off at myself.

Will log back on after slimming world and let you all know if i lost, maintained or gained. Think i already know the answer tho.

Rea x

Hi guys. So...hows has your week been?

Not to sound boastful, but ive done so well! For me that is. I stuck to under 1000 every day for 2 weeks. Some days i only had 400cals or so.
Lost 2.5lbs the first week and 1.5lbs the second week. So well done me!!!

I know its not loads in comparison to you guys, but its good for me and maintainable. When im stroinger willed and lost a bit of fat this way, i can start to decrease. Ive done at least an hours exercise a day too, so its been good.

Struggling a little this week. Benn making myself eat even when im not hungry cos im so scard of my old feelings and binges reappearing. But they havnt even surfaced over the last fortnight, so its obviously an irrational thought. Ive had a bit too mch these past 3 days, so gona have to mega restrict this weekend to ensure iv lost weight on monday. Or beast the treadmill tomo, or both!

Thanks for listening.

Rea x

Yo. Had loads to eat last night - chilli and salad for tea, then 2 bowls of bran flakes with raisins and cinnamon. I know its all 'healthy', but should defo have left it.

I think i allow myself to binge on mondays and now evidently tuesdays cos i dont get weighed until monday again. Thats so bad. Controlled binging is dangerous as it leads to purges and a mental brain.

However, the only positive about my binge is that i go to the toilet more (if you know what i mean), cos all the stodge pushes old food through. But now im in that frame of mind, the laxatives have come out. Hope i dont cramp up at netball tonight.

Rea x

Well, i did it - weigh in tonight said id lost 2.5lbs. (Proper Slimming World scales at the same time each week). My scales are shit, so its good to get some consistency - even if i have to pay for it and be humiliated if i ever gain.

Thats not a lot of weight loss but its steady and what i wanted to lose. Made my mind up last week to just stop being a fat bitch and convincing myself that i 'deserved' food and had 'earned' food.

I exercised for at least an hour a day every day, including walking to work, gym, netball and running.

I plan to do the same this week:
Wed - Gym (1.5 hours), Rugby (1.5 hours)
Thurs - Run (30mins), netball trials (2 hours)
Fri - Gym (1.5 hours)
Sat - Running (1hour)
Sun - Netball match (1 hour)
Mon - Aerobics

If i aim for 2lbs next week and keep doing that (no more than 1000cals a day), than its weight i can keep off, instead of binging and putting it all back on.

CW - 147lbs
GW1 - 140lbs (By September 30th and maintained until November 15th for aunties wedding)
GW2 - 133lbs (By Christmas and maintained throughout January).

Any comments guys? Please be harsh and tell me to stop being a lazy, greedy bitch - it will help!
Rea x

I need to get back on track. I started off having a really good week, now ive messed it up with this bank holiday wkd.

Before i went on holiday, i lost 6lbs in 1 week to get down to 144lbs (massive yes, but im shit).

And last week when i got weighed (after 3 weeks on hol), i was back up to 149.5lbs. This is shit. But even now, this week after deciding to do it properley, ive failed and ate like a nob.

Had home made lasagna tonight. And bless my housemate, he gave me a tiny portion cos he thinks im 'dieting', but then i went back for seconds! 

FAT PIG!!!!!

Duno wots up with me, did so well before holiday. Maybe im destined to be this weight forever.

Is there anything i can do to gain control and boost my  mind into submission?

Help please!!
Rea x

Hi guys. Well, i was doing well - only fruit and veg from monday - thursday. But yesterday and today iv eating 'normal' foods and lots of it. Feel a bit shit like all my hard work has come undone. But ive got weigh-in a day later this week cos of the bank holiday (yay!). So in theory, ive got til tuesday to lose the weight that i have surely put on this weekend.

What you reckon - 3lbs if i restrict to 800 cals? Will be exercising sunday, monday and tuesday.

CW: 148lbs
H: 5"6

Let me know if you reckon i can do it!
Rea x

So...back form my hols, had a fab time. 5 dyas back and am still not addressing thae fact that i ut on 5 lbs. Said to myself it would be gone by monday, but havnt really made the decision to get rid of it, if you know what i mean?

I ave to consciously decide to restict and get myself in the right mindset. But at the moment, i couldbnt give a shit that im fat. I honestly couldnt care less about my flab.

So what should i do? Mkae my mind up to lose it or just chill out for a bit, eat what i want and be happy?

Who knows! Rea x

 Yo. Just got back off holiday. Was fab in africa but i ate like a wild boar!

Put on 5lbs but will soon get rid of that.

Thinking of quitting Slimming World, cos im  payng money and not losing weight through their methods - only my own. Will give it til september then decide.

Rea x

You know what ive discovered? If i could maintain my restricting, i would be soooo skinny!

The scales say i have gone from 150lbs to 144 in 3 days. For me, thats bloody good. So if is l keep going until tuesday (weigh in day at slimming world), then i will have easily reached my 1st goal weight of 147 (past it already).

SO if i can stay strong and not binge before tuesday, im sorted for my hoilday!

Will post next week and let you all know!!!
Rae x

Boooo. I put on weight. Had an awesome week, mon-thurs, but then my mate visited at the weekend so i binged with her. Also went out ands got extremely drunk on fiday. So its my own fault, just dint realise id put on 2 whole pounds.

Absolutely gutted. So have gone extreme this week. Wana lose 3 lbs before my hoiday on tuseday. If i can keep this up, ill lose way more than that.


Stats: 
H = 5'6
CW = 148 lbs
GW1 = 147 lbs
GW2 = 140 lbs
GW3 = 133 lbs

Breakfast 
Fruit -150
Gren tea - 0

Lunch
Salad - 100
Cup a soup - 60
Fruit - 100

Snack
Fruit -100
Diet coke - 0
Green tea - 0

Tea
Steamed veg with soy suace and garlic - 200

TOTAL= 750 MAX

Was easy yesterday, so im assuming it will be all this week. However, i have a few issues arising - thursday is the staff leaving do with a free bar and buffet. Gona stick to fresh fruit and veg, but doubt there will be much of it. Also, what is the lowest calorie drink i can have all night? Thinking gin and slim tonic or champagne.

Then on friday - sunday, my sister and nephew are coming ot stay with us. She has said she will treat us to dinner. But i dont want it! Just cant say so.

Any suggestions?

Rea x

 10 st 8lbs. Not good enough, but getting there. Losing 1lb per week on average. I dont know how to lose more, as  my mind goes mental when  dont each. I dont have any willpower. Only God can help me.